The pretense of happiness holding back real emotion

You are supposed to be happy. It is expectation and when everyone is happy about something, its hard to question it. Its hard to be yourself when you subconsciously accept a strong untrue paradigm about life. We are affected by each other, this is true fact. But you’re not supposed to be happy; you are not supposed to be anything but you. To be hurt is valid and to be self-loathing is valid and to be pathetic is valid. People are malleable beings. Our emotions do not define us but are an experience dear to us. We so often pretend or look for or force something we are happy about… for a myriad of reasons all below being ourselves but sold and thought as better. Its ok to be judged. You will be different, I will be different and if that small sadness or anger or reoccurring emotion is unacceptable then fuck it, neither are we and our judicators are sadly petty. Expressing and experiencing one’s self is true life and it must happen before true happiness can be felt. This is one reason children are happier than adults. Because we lie to ourselves and have so many unexpressed emotions.