I can stand here and know that I wasn’t enough.
That I’d never be enough, no matter how hard I tried. 
My therapist tells me that it’s not my fault, but the voice in my head tells me it is.

Took me a while to realize that the voice in my head was NOT my voice,
and that you really shouldn’t let people inside who weren’t invited.

We live in strange times, and every person encounters moments in their own times where they feel worthless and overwhelmed, then maybe even powerless.
It is in these times that we are given the most ample spot to say,”No, you move”…

What directs the winds and waters that our life rides upon? To not question this is to fall silly into missed opportunity and a ferrari used as a couch…

We exist in our own prisons or our own gardens. This is a spectrum, of course, but who makes these rules? The brain would tell us “logic” and the brain lies to be comfortable, functional to what degree it knows. Do more than old restrictions, get your real life…

I was young, gullible…
I fell into the trap love can have, 
Not knowing the damages that lie ahead of me.
Those damages led to so much pain;
Mentally, physically, & emotionally.

I have suffered from this disorder my entire life. I want to share some of my story in the hopes that you may better understand the disorder that controls a big part of my actions, thoughts, and my life. I also hope that by understanding a little more about this disorder you will be better able to empathize with other people in your life that may suffer from OCD.

They told me what I have to do to win. But, I’m too scared to lose myself and everything I represent. I’m too scared to face the truth and every moment alive I’ve spent. And there’s no blaming anybody else cause this was the direction I chose and went. i’m just so tired of feeling so worthless… I feel so lonely and lost I just wanna give up and forget about all this earth mess… It’s like...